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dear girl, what are you doing when you ought to be sleeping because you have run tomorrow?
havent ran for so so longgg.. still msning a friend.

suddenly realised from him that athletes, at a certain level sacrifice many things in their lives.
of course there are some that can juggle all, family, love life, friends, church nad still got some personal time. but there are just too many athletes out there that have some degree of regret because of the commitement to their sport.

TJC. played okay today.
tjc guys are good.maybe they got more experience etc.
anyway, shuicheng owes me S$50 for todays win:P

i didnt really take note till today, but i realised this is my 100th post.

played karmun for selections today, she was sick, so i dint really feel good about winning.maybe if we played another day, the results would have been different. at some point i did feel it was unfair, and wondered why i never asked not to play today. my toenail broke today too, first time. im afraid of pain, so i jus plastered it and continued the second set. tmr against tjc, hope i will do well.

i dont know why, but it seems to be more than just another sport, another CCA to me. sometimes i feel it means something more.

i woke up realising i have lost what i used to have. i dreamt about four of us. and i dint want to wake up, but the alarm still woke me up, and the dream, i could never return too. the morning was especially cold, as i listened to songs on the mrt, i couldnt help but.....

i really want to blame everything on you, how could you just break me so easily? but its also me. i didnt manage to capture your heart, and just let it slip away.. i gave in too much because i felt too much for you. but maybe that is not what you want.
i couldnt run fast enough, and you couldnt slow down for me. my fitness is at absolute zero, while youre training hard everyday.

i know as im thinking of you, im no longer part of your thoughts.
it would really help if i could just keep my mind on something else everyday on the mrt. it is hard. today as i walked out of school, i was wondering if i would feel better; happier, if i had someone to talk to as i went home, someone to call to tell them i have won, someone to whine to about the small little broken nail,
that someone, i was thinking of you. even though your number was typed into my phone for so many times, i never once pressed the call button.

she could forgive everything.

"i no longer have feelings for you."
his simple words, but it made her cry.why is it so easy for him to say, for difficult for her to accept?

i wonder how many people how there marry the people they truly love.
i wonder if people still believe in marriage.
i wonder how much it takes for two people to be together.
im marvelled, that using P&C, you will know that the chances of him and her falling in love, is lower many other occurances.
much less getting married.

random rants.

tiramisu.i feel like having it now.it gives me the warm feeling(:
cookies and cream ice cream.
oreo cheesecake.

LOVEHATE.

wait for me.
today is a good emotion day(:
i cleared the stuff off my table.its a step ive taken today at least.

im thinking of the things i am willing to trade just to have this year back again. rewind pls, to the last day of Os.

even though i dont really know how to go about doing it right now, i want to enjoy the most beautiful things soon, even if its the simplest action.
because,
..........................................................................................................

sometimes i guess in everyone you would wish to live life like you will die tomorrow, love like you have never been hurt before. but we just cant.

would you escape from the truth and pretend not to know anything because youre afraid?i would, and i have chosen to do so. because i no longer, or never had the courage to face up to it.

keep all this away, and just stay happy playing quadra-pop.i wonder, for how long?

had YES today.more work, but for a better future i guess. aloysius is the living and breathing example darhdarhdarh. yes i know and i too hope i could have been like him, able to put in so much time into YES and entre stuff. but i just cant. my family means that much to me, plus squash. understand me. after A levels, if you give me the chance, i will show you, i can be so much more than this.

squash training was good today.

anyway, these are some photos. i like the emo coconut shot.i took it(: more can be found on facebook, (:

i have a feeling, 02122007 would be my worst birthday.:(

another longgg day.
conflict management course, then followed by squash. i slept before training(:
but today's training is still not as intensive as before promos, no PT.
dont know if its good or badd.

a place i do not have to meet your expectations.
a place i do not have to meet the family's expectations
a place i do not have to meet my friends' expectations.
a night of .
i dont even know how to describe it.

haha i was voted on facebook by lynette to be most likely to live happily ever after. she must be to caught up with stanley to fail to see the truth for now.
well, facebook is not so addictive anymore. after two days, its getting quite boring.

yup, yesterday the AJSquash had chalet at SAF holiday chalets!
i reached tampines at about 1105, and i missed sam and baowen and had to buy stuff with pingkee and maokun. that dint turn out too good, cos they just wanted me there so that they can blame it all on me, " we seeked grace's approval on this!", so that the girls wont scold them too badly or something. in the end, i guess it was still okay lar, but maybe a little towards e ex side. we wanted to go macs to GET salt and pepper( macs breakfast) for marinating our fish instead of buying, but macs is smart and had already kept all of it! so we ended up having to make do with the black pepper sauce.
and, we saw a very very long queue outside tampines mall so we decided to go out to the main road for cab. everywhere we went, there were no available cabs. wasted close to 45 mins taking buses back to where we were originally, the mall, and close to 1 1/2 hr to finally reach SAF chalet..
then after lazing around the house, sam karmun and me decided to go cycle ard. went past some scary changi houses, and then we went to the beach. its so nice at the beach! as usual we took alot of photos, and one of them i particularly like which is of the emo coconut! haha shall upload it on friendster or facebook!then after fooling ard finally went back to the bbq, and this time, i finally started the fire!one by myself!haha feel quite proud cos the guys are supposed to do this, but squashers are lazy.. so shant depend on them. hahah and the bbq started darhdarhdarh. halfway my dad suddenly said for the first time in my life that i could stay in the chalet!super happy. but after a while, talking to a friend and all, it dint seem that much interesting alr. even though it was still quite fun(:
but a part of me still wished it was spent with someone else, or some other people lar. i mean how much nice could staring at romantic stars, finding north star on the beach, watching planes fly past over you and making wishes along, WITH the squash team. okay its not that bad, but everything could always be better right. well, but im still happy that i got to stay!hahah(:
and then we went to look at the tranvestites, there was one that i was particularly sad about lar, she/he din look that good so when we came back at abt 5 in the morning, she was still there left alone:( the guys watched some soccer matches, but i guessed i dozed off on the table. then they played cards and poker the night thru and before we knew it,( we only went back to the chalet at 3) it was 5. i think i slept from 5 to 6 then we went to the bench again to see the sun rise. its quite nice, and the beach there is really romantic and nice!!!!(:
the later part of the day was then spent eating, playing and cycling! oh yar cycling! went with pingkee and maokun to cycle. very fun. they cycled all the way to downtown and the journey was enjoyable. we stopped somewhere where there were swings( cos i wanted to), and the guys cant enjoy swings. they cant swing high. hahah, but this time when i swang, i got the sick feeling in my stomach:( cycling for close to 2 1/2 hrs is T I R I N G!
haha then baowen's dad finally came to fetch us at 3 plus to home sweet home! (thanks uncle!)i slept on the mrt, really deep sleep i think. i almost thought i slept all the way to jurong east..

you,

BLOGGER is CRAZY.my template is screwed up.will try to make it better, when i feel like it. i will password protect it that only desirable people view it, and stuff it with games so i wont be bored. till then ta-ta. im still waiting for GRACE WRITTEN REPORT.HA

it looks nice, that photo from the past.

it fools everyone.

haha, im impressed with my own emo-literature(:

GRACE IS FEELING SICK. first i got a bit of sore throat yesterday, and today i got flu. this afternoon when i came back i got flu, slight fever and sore throat. and my speech still is crap. not forgetting Oral Presentation on Thursdays.
omg, go away illness. haha okay going to check on what grace means already. im waiting for the 3000 word written report about what my name means. did i tell you my name is officially used to named a guitar?haha feel so honoured, better register it in singapore ministry of births and deaths to make it more official.HA.

chinese was crap.i forgot i cant use the dictionary onehalfhr later, and ended up cracking my brain to think of all the words. never had this problem ever, and at the most important exam, THE ELCTRONIC DICTIONARY SCREWED UP. IT JUS WENT BLANK. im lucky i brought the other one.

suki sushi at angmokio is lousy.dont go there. according to zhenkai, the soba noodles are like chewing gum, and chawamushi from sakae is still better. have been eating too much fried unhealthy stuff recently. illness illness go away. my immunity is so low.

hahah i shall blame it all on you, you dont even know so you wont mind. you its all your fault. HAHA

this time was different,
and it cut me like a knife when you walked out of my life.
Rihanna - Cry.

i hope we'll all do well for OP and Monday's Chinese paper. hope it will be easy.

a fun day at school AUDI.

an empty heart.

www.friendster.com/gracemyname

seen many things i wanted to blog about recently.

that day when i was on my way home, i saw a inter-racial couple, indian and chinese. it is this type of couples that make me believe that we can achieve peace, that we can all live happily, without aunties discriminating against the malays or indians or chinese. that we all belong to this race called the HUMAN race.

been having weird dreams lately.
i so look forward.to what i dont know.

lots of random thoughts are just in my mind these few days.

like.

does love survive marriage?i was reading this book that night," remind me again why i married you". although the story doesnt really addresses the question they raised, which is does love survive marriage, it is quite funny, especially the female protagonist.

ABCDE.my grades for promos, not up to my expectations.disappointed, but i guess i can only work harder.

squash selftrain had been meaningless today, all shots with no power, playing with wayne leaves me running BUT not getting all the shots he hit.

Written report + insight and reflection draft to be handed in on thursday. i hate this! after promos is supposed to be relaxed, and just for me to train everyday. and smash the ball into the wall to release all my emotions. i think this method really works in giving me more power.

talking to my friend about future occupation. YAR i have decided. i want to be a PRINCESS. HAHA.

i hope the petition letter for Mr Koh really works. it didnt really touch me( im not that difficult to gan3 dong4 right.) but i hope it is okay for the others. Mr koh really rocks.

watched the finale for metamorphosis last night. well, death is really an apt ending. maybe only when he die, she gets to release all the emotions she had to hold back. loved him and trusted only him, yet he hurt her the deepest. well, there was love even if they believed in different things.. she put her ring back on after he died. i wonder why must things always end with death to make a apt closing. what if he dint die? she can never forgive him? Death is to make the audience remember the show. well it did, for me.

and i created a new display picture. REFER TO ABOVE>

hello, and of course you were always on my mind. RIGHT. no my mind was on other things too.like those above.

my life is becoming such a triviality! i used to look forward esp. to my seventeenth birthday cos i thought i will celebrate it with you. 17th, yar okay.its just another birthday.

well well.im seeking to make this more interesting. perhaps a few days later it would. like real.

so many many things on my mind.

the memories we had, i will hold close to my heart. it feels as if in every part of singapore, i would have experienced something with you there. a ache, sometimes dull, sometimes acute, but always there. i wonder if it will fade away with time, and as i learn to pack my days and get better at smiling when it hurts.
i really want to be friends, not acquaintances.
but its weird, i dont know how. i dont know how to treat you like yiyao, or jenson or zhenkai.
because, the weirdest type of friends, are those together-turned-friends.

meandyou.
020107-220907/101007
me and you
170107-_______

a quiz?HAHA from mel
1. yiyao
2. davis
3. natasha
4. winyee
5. regina
6. xinling
7. jenson
8. josh

How did you meet 6?
xinling- from when we were the small little primary three students and her with her very funny smile((:

Why are you friends with 3?
natasha; haha cos her laughter is unique and shes funny, fun and squashes.

Is 7 in a relationship?
-jenson, not officially but sort of. HAHA

Have you kissed 1?- yiyao, haha NO. although he likes to think hes super desirable.

Have you hugged 4?- winyee, haha sort of but i cant really remember.

Have you done anything sexual with 5?
haha yar sureeee. shes REGINA:D
Would 1 and 8 make a good couple?
-josh and yiyao,haha yar maybe. the first time they met someone went into the toilet to hide?(: no offence.hahaha

How long have you know 2?
-davis, three million years, all joy and laughter, tears i cried FOR you, (haha honoured?), crazty stuff that we tell each other, our friendship shall never fade away((:
Would you ever kiss 7?-
jenson, HAHA no.
its meant for someone else.
Whats a good memory with 5?
taking cool pictures anywhere and just sitting there talking.

Ever hugged 8?
-josh.hahaha yes.

Do you love 4?
-yeap, my POsh FAMILY((:

Is 5 nice?
yes, reg is nice and there for you!(:

How did you meet 3?-
haha first day in AJC

Who makes you laugh?-everyone! :)

Who makes you smile?- everyone! :)

When was the last time you saw 4?
winyee, friday last paper!

Would 3 and 6 make a cute couple?-
haha umm not really..ling and natasha.nat will drive her CRAZY and ling will die. i dont want tht.HAHA

Does 8 love you?-
haha, if he loves me, i'll love him too.

Do you see 3 a lot?- natasha
yup, i see her perspiring like crazy every morning/

Describe 4 in 3 words?- worrying.about. promos.
winyee, dont worry anymore!(:

What would you buy 1 for their birthday?- yiyao
he really lacks nothing and given his ability he can get anything.
millions of maple cards maybe, ahah when cash just floods my room i will do that.

Have you travelled anywhere with 5?- regina,
haha yar all around singapore(:

Do you have fun with 7?-jenson
squash sessions full of screams

Is 2 a cool person?- davis.
haha pretty cool. I.C.E Q.u.e.e.n

Who is the loudest?-- myself.haha no i would say natasha

Do any of them get on your nerves sometimes?- all of them,:P

Do you know when 6's birthday is?- weng: 19 october.shes my eternal friend!(:

What do you really think of 3?- natasha, crazy squealer, but a really great friend, can talk and play, anything goes!(:

Best memory with 4?- winyee.
just sitting there with POsh talking

Does 1 even know you?- yiyao, he sees me almost everyday, knows me like a cell in body, and a great friend who will hurt me when neccessary to prevent me from getting into deeper trouble.

Is 5 happy?- xinling, i think she is? jus a bit tired from last night maybe?(:

Does 7 live close?-jenson, quite close la.
singapore is only that big.
haha

Do you have any classes with 2? davis,
not anymore, but i still remember the days we sat tgt in sec3 (:

Have you and 3 ever hooked up?- natasha
haha will probably.LOL

Are you and 8 close?-josh
haha,so close and yet very far.

Do you wanna kiss 5?- regina.
haha i dont like to kiss girls strictly.

Is 6 a good person?-she is among the best people on earth who will do loads of sweet things for her friends(:

Does 2 own a car?-piks: Nope. I wonder if she'll ever learn how to drive.. Hmmmm....

How did you choose your Top 8?-they just came to my mind(:

haha(: fun.

When a GUY is quiet and is alone, He is thinking how good you are.
He is thinking what he has to do later on.
When a GUY is lying on his bed, He is thinking deeply why he loves you.
he will fall asleep in a min
When a GUY looks at you in your eyes, He wants to tell you how much he loves you and how important you are.
He just wanna make you feel as if youre special.
When a GUY answers "I'm Fine" after awhile, He is not and most probably feels hurt.
He really is just fine.
When a GUY keeps asking you the same question, He is wondering why you are lying.
He has nothing more to say to you.
When a GUY hugs you while sleeping, He is wishing that you would belong to him forever.
He lost his pillow to hug.
When a GUY calls or smses you everyday, He Misses You and wants your attention.
He feels responsible for you.
when a GUY wants to see you everyday, He cares for you and want to know how are you today.

When a GUY says I love you, He really means it.
He said that cos you said it first.
When a GUY says that he can't live without you, He has made up his mind that you are his future wife.
He will forget what he said that day.
When a GUY says "I Miss You", He really wants to see you, maybe immediately.
It's just a thing that will fade for him.
GUYS.

note: this is just a one-off thing.something i felt at THIS moment. maybe the next moment i'll be feeling something else.

monday to thursday: almost over and done with.
chinese in one hour,hope it is going to be okay.
this week has passed, finally.
examinations are almost over,
please make physics EASY,really easy tomorrow.

never thought that singapore could be that cold.or is it just me?

the stupidest thing is when two people from two worlds apart meet and fall in love. but as time passes, they fall out of it.
the distance between them grows way out of that that was separating two strangers, the two of them, before they met.

Gotta Go my own way
High School Musical
I gotta say what's in my mind
Something about us
doesn't seem right these days
life keeps getting in the way
Whenever we try, somehow the plan is always rearranged
It's so hard to say
But I've gotta do what's best for me
You'll be ok..
I've go to move on and be who I am
I just don't belong hereI hope you understand
We might find our place in thisworld someday
But at least for now
I gotta go my own away
Don't wanna leave it all behind

But I get my hopes upand
I watch them fall everytime
Another colour turns to grey and
it's just too hard to watch it
all slowly fade away
I'm leaving today 'cause I've gotta do what's best for me
you'll be ok.

Promos are the stupidest thing on earth.really cant wait for it end and go back to the normal life.

Beautiful Seed, you can change the world, you can make people believe in you, you give them hope and happiness.
all this you can do, as long as you live.

Ever walked in the rain?
when you're feeling happy, or when theres someone with you, you will probably feel that the rain is a blessing, that it cools you down. it reminds you of romantic scenes in movies.
when you're not that happy, and try walking in the rain, the rain isnt cooling. its cold and you shiver because you can only look on as they share their umbrella.

love is such a wonderful thing. it makes you feel the warmth grow in your heart, to know that someone out there, someone maybe you havent met and still dont know cares for you. and that he/she will be the person who will do that for the rest of their lives without ever regreting their decision no matter what happens.

but it also crushes people because this emotion is in every human being. a person i think, is only truly invulnerable when there is no longer anyone in this world he cares for. at that time, is there even any meaning in his life? yes he is living for himself, but what is the point if you will always be alone and no other people in your life? in your life journey will be you and only you.

suddenly got a burst of emotion yesterday.do i really complain alot? am i really feeling ungrateful throughout my life? remembered my conversation with my neighbour on the way to school today. out of all that i've said, how much longer will i hold on to that belief?

no matter what happens, no matter how sad i may become sometimes because of this weirdest emotion, i still believe in this thing called love.

i know my posts are random. well, greenapple is characterised by its randomness. its not a site for readers to get examples they can quote in their gp essays.

.Girls cry because...
1. They're sad...
2. They're scared...
3. They're nervous...
4. They're frustrated...
5. They're missing someone...
6. They're alone...
7. They're PMSing...
8. They're pregnant..
9. Their heart is broken...
10. They're in love...
11. Their souls have been torn...
12. They met a boy they cannot have..
13. They fell in love with a boy...
14. They hurt so bad inside..
.15. They're mad...
16. Something bad happend...
17. JUST BECAUSE THEY FEEL LIKE CRYING
******:MEN If any girl you know is crying and you see them, don't just stand there and say you're sorry. Hold them and tell them everything will be okay, even if you have no idea what is wrong with them. Girls just want to be held and know that someone cares about them.

from friendster.ever so appropriate.

ever felt like you were always second choice?
i did.

fairytales and fantasies is when you watch The Prince and ME and see that he made her his fiancee, and overnight she became a princess. they were supposed to live happily ever after.
but reality is when they come up with The Prince and Me 2 and tobloids, lies, misunderstandings, hateful liars, and the very fact that they belong to different worlds, things that pushed them together in the first place now driving them apart.

叶的决定是因为风的追求还是树无法挽留?

reserve squash league 2007
nats should have won!
the lineup difference would mean we could have tied.
bleh.

BOO!just got back three of my term papers and i really really didnt do well.AT ALL. i hate this!
b-chinese
c-chemistry
d-physics

im guessing all the other subjects are also as terrible.i dont want an E!!!

“You see, before you fall in love, you’re like leaves scattered around this parking lot, worlds apart and all. And then, love happens—the whirlwind—and you’re swept up from where you were. You’re caught up in the moment, your thoughts and emotions spinning like mad. And when it ends, you settle back down to the real world. After that, you’ve got the memory of the whirlwind in your head. If you were a leaf in this parking lot, you’ll remember that short span of time when you were, even for just a few seconds, closer to the skies.”

you made me feel, like a princess.

today was the last day for all the papers!totally did not have the mood to study the previous night.

then today's chinese paper was really out of the ordinary.my mind was totally blank when the topic was: treating others with sincerity.

so after thinking alot, i decided to write this.

A was studying in a university, and outside the university was a cemetery.standing in it was a guy. he was normal, but in his arms was A's greatests love, cajovoi, the flower of hope.
A walked up to B, and B told A his story.
the one that laid beneath the ground they are stepping on is his first love. They were born on the same day, but on their 18th birthday, she had to leave him. she passed away from luekemia. A remembered the tears he saw in B's eyes, the sorrow,the sadness?
how could it be fake?
-more drama and emotions between--
blah blah, they got married.
but later, when A's dad passed away, B realised everything was a lie.
from the first time they met, everything was arranged by B. what he wanted was A's fortune, nothing more.
the month of may comes with good weather, described by writers to be the month of sweet budding romance.but in that month, they got a divorce.
A could not understand why everything had to be a lie.

A saw B walking out onto the road. there was a car zooming past. everything happened so quick.
A saw herself pushed B away, and then, everything went blank.

B asked A why did she do that?didnt he already told her everything he did was not true?it was not from his heart, not sincere and nothing to him at all?
A did not answer, but she knew the answer in her heart.
even if B dint put any sincerity in his feelings for her, and that it was all a lie, it actually dint really matter.
because, she will never need to regret. she was sincere in her love.

looking at the sunset, A smiled. tomorrow will just be another new day.

chinese was alright,chem was okay too.like i said, it doesnt really matter, because all i was doing was looking forward to the end of the day!the happy family was going towning!
HAHA
super fun.
but i really cant write it out now.all i know is, the most fun part about everything is that we can just stand anywhere and talk and have fun.like even in the middle of borders, anywhere it doesnt matter, as long as we are together.((:

cooking really is fun.i had fun with all the talks we had, and i finally realised what nat really wants.HAHA.

and today i realised, i have really a great bunch of friends.2407, happy family and ill never forget the bp family, like yiyao and davis and 08eggers and so many many more!

tHEHAppYFAMIlY(minus winyee!)

we should have taken more pictures.dont you think yanlin is so close to jenson?

boo.nothing to blog.

SENTOSA HAPPYFAMILY!((:
yups after like so long, happy family decided to go to Sentosa for family outing.but the people who went were like, plus one minus one.plus dear minus winyee.

so at 9am, only i reached on time.then josh then jensonandyanlin reach.they were wearing matching colors damn cute. then guess who was the latest?aiya,its just natasha and zhenkai, turning up in slippers that belong to each other and zk's giant leg trying to break nat's slippers.but obviously,they think its supe cute. haha.:P

then went the bus place,and zk cant resist eating prata with curry,so we waited for him.and the whatever i ordered became green tea.no surprise.i already got green tea once.bleh.i wanted apple tea.bus bus to sentosa,din really look outside and see where we were going cos someone was busy trying to take photos,but failed.jenson,..too slow.nat woke up already.

then we reached the beach station,and took the tram to siloso beach.not really alot of peopl,so we managed to find a spot.and yanlin flashed out her poncho and so we could put all our bags on it..nat and zk went to blade,dear and i went to walk, so yanlin and jenson were left there.no one knew what they did, so i cant write about it too.haha :(

walked walked walked.super long.then like halfway, nat and zk just zoomed past..walked all the way to palawan beach, which was really very far if you ever tried walked.geography students observing the sea.funny.

thurs beach was quite empty, which was good.
when we went back to siloso, we saw nat and zk in the water.then josh spotted the other couple. i cant see what they were doing under the water, but i think i saw linked hands.but they auto break when i called jenson's name. and they were super anti social. four of us, then the two of them enjoying the sea.HAHA.

lunch, jenson and yanlin disappeared to dunno where AGAIN, and we went for the luge and skyride before that. according to SOMEONE, im so slow, butcant help it right.lol i dont want to crash or something. you watch too much f1 so youre not scared la.and you should have drop your slippers on your way up.i think that would have been really really very funny.((:
went back to the sea again.swam to the other shore,fun!have never done that, so it was really great..haha having a lifeguard beside me helps, of course.

the queue to bath was super long, so yl and i bathed in the open instead.wasnt very clean, but had to make do with it. haha dinner at vivo, super tired by the time the day ended.

but i wouldnt mind having another day with you.
even if im burnt like crazy and so so painful now!!:(
lovesmyhappyfamily!

i was with my brother that night, and he asked me if there are things that i keep because they mean more than what they are to me.i know my brother does, because he's sentimental despite all he says. i know he keeps like pieces of paper that mean nothing to others but that box he will rescue the first if a fire breaks out. i looked at him and said i did. besides everything i keep in my heart, i have a golden box i placed on the first shelf of my cupboard, in it with all the things i have collected over the years. everything that has been with me since i got that golden box in sec two.from a box that means something more than a box, it became something that memories are kept. its now full, and now i then, i would empty its contents and memories will come back. paper that is about to just break into pieces from the past, new cards and new letters, new memories mixed in with the old.

from that time i got that box, we have all grown up. more memories are created, more people come into our lives. but where we come from and where it all start, we should never forget.

"nice to recollect,but in the end are just still memories."
words carved into my heart cannot be erased.

long long day..another 5 more newspaper articles to go, four more content subjects to study for.

zhenkai,jenson

winyee,me,natasha,yanlin

The Happy Family 2407

((:

nadal won french open!love him loads loads.im so happy that he has won the title for the third time.

federer,i think i could see tears in his eyes.

just realised i have a mountain of homework!AHH.okay i will try to clear them on monday,but theres trainin on monday?
or maybe should go do on tuesday.bleh so much to do!i hate homework and tests that reduce me to nothing in front of the test papers,where the questions are meant to kill.

anyway,i still think that although these shows make me wanting to write all those stuff, they shouldnt show it too much.cos theres something that the girl said.
i used to think i was the happiest person in the world, cos he loved me. but now i know im actually dreaming and all this is a lie.
well,my mum loves to relate it to me,and she will say,
see, girll..they even show it on tv.stop dreaming.

its just so sad,i love to dream.and i want to live my dream.

sometimes we hide things from people cos we dont want to hurt them. we suppress everything we want to actually say because we want to protect them, and do what we deem to be least painful them, hoping that by not facing up to reality and painting a picture of happiness will mean everything bad will disappear.
escapism.
when everything eventually comes tumbling out, the hurt is unbearable. because everything you did in the past was just fabricate a lie for her to live in. you did everything you did out of obligation for her. it was a sense of responsibilty and her love for you, NOT your love for her that prompted you into being with her. When she finds out the truth, that in your heart there is someone whom you wish to forget but can no longer forget, she will collapse.
she will collapse because she cant take it. no amount of apologies will mend the hurt.

people, think about it.
but all these came flowing after i watched a episode on the Herbalist Manual( channel 55)
not real life experience.

4 DAYS AGO, rafael nadal celebrated his 21st birthday!
suddenly it reminds me how time flies.like i could remember his 20th birthday just past, and he celebrated it at roland garros and i read about it on atp players' blog as well.
well one year have passed, its already half year gone!
i dont think i have half year worth of study in my brain right now.
boo.

whats the difference between today and yesterday and the day before yesterday?
nothing.

if only you get what i mean sometimes.

youre coming back in two days' time!(:
two weeks to twodays!everything becomes clear and i wish i wouldnt die after tmrw's vertical run and tues EIGHT 8 8 8 8 8 KM.

havent someone told me before,
whatever will be,will be.

i love rafael nadal!was thinking about what i should blog about,and since a friend gave me an idea,this post is dedicated to my favourite sports star, RAFAEL NADAL!

i remember the first time i saw nadal play on television was during the french open two years ago.he was wearing this lime green shirt and by that time,he was already World No. 2, when i watched him played, he looks so nice chasing after every ball and putting every effort to reach and win the finals!
he eventually did,and from then on, my life had an additional element to it, i started to talk to mel about tennis and go on atptennis.com and watch the tennis matches.

nadal has progressed so much from being the king of clay, he has gone on to work hard in the recent years in his worst court, the grass court,and successfully reached the finals of winbledon last year.although he lost to federer still,i believe all rafa fans must be proud of him!

indeed, nadal also caught much attention for his unique character facing the press and the type of clothes he wear.it is unprecedent that a tennis player have wore pirate pants(3/4s) to courts, and the colours that nadal wears makes him look good!(except some stupid colors like moss green that nike has chosen to dress him in).the only time he had to wear all white was in the lawns of winbledon.

Rafael nadal and roger federer have so many finals shared between the both of them, and i always prefer nadal to federer.because in nadal i can see the emotions when he play. he doesnt let it all out only when he wins a game like federer. he never gives up, and in a recent match against Canas, nadal suffered a setback of 6-0 to Canas, but he still managed to win the game.

To me and to many of nadal fans i feel, it is not JUST how good he is, it is who he is. it feels as if hes not just some superstar from the planet of superstardom, he is just a guy from Mollorca.

RAFAEL NADAL ROCKS!(:

i just realised zhenkai got the same template as me!...

well,i bet theres many more out there that i dont know of..anyway, this two weeks is gonna be terrible..

Monday: self training and make up pe, and maybe some shopping at taka

Tuesday: combined training--vertical run and 6k..:(( will i live?

Wednesday:Entrepreneurship training--H3 PW in other words

Thursday: i cant rmb

Friday: cant rmb

haha..anyway, im super happy now since i went shopping with my mum ytd and bought the green and white adidas bag.

i actually called natasha before buying it okay.and bought other stuff as well.wanted to buy the fila bag.and nike bag.omg i want so many bags.and i need new clothes.haha..really feel like shopping shopping during the great singapore sale!hahah..dear not in singapore, can occupy myself with all these bonding with my mum, although she keeps asking about you.(:

loves loves.

twelve more days.

is it all going to be alright?
or is it going to be downhill from here?
i dont know, and maybe i dont want to know.

sometimes,i dont know.really.

it comes and goes so fast, fades then get another boost.till its next wave, it continues to disappear. sometimes i wonder am i imagining things, or things arent as i love them to be.

i dont blog about happy things cos the feeling goes away as i blog.i blog about stuff i just want it to go away. go away so they dont come back to haunt me so soon, and make me think too much, think too hard, and just make me want to cry.

i wonder if all good things come to an end, and if it does, when will it end?

at least give me a cue, so i wont be without a clue when it strikes.

i just heard on the tv, how many times can a couple break up, make up and move on? or will they just continue in the cycle of breakup and makeup?

i love you, but sometimes i wonder if that is ever enough.

enough emo-ing for the day.

havent been blogging much i guess... school's nice, i just dont like the homework part. it seems like if i dont do some little work, i will drop to the worst in school...hmm..should study while theres still not much training now...

chem and physics test on weds!bleh. hope i will scrap past it. but theres squash training on weds!yeah.not bad at all.getting eye protector on weds.girls still havent decide which bag to get. really really hope we can all agree on one, cos im spending away the money meant for the bag.mum has been complaining that im spending more than before, but its all cos of the Adidas jacket and AdiStar. She was okay with buying it too..but seems im supposed to be doing more work and working harder than before for those adidas goods. well i guess thats the price. still cant find the photos for the jacket and shoes, so ive decided to take the photos on my own!

jacket's front

jackets back

the reversible side of the jacket( ilove! formotion)

AdiStar Control Version 4.0

all these from

ADIDAS! (:

dont forget all those who walked along with you when youre on your own.

because sometimes we get caught up in all our work, our new life, new environment new everything, what chairman said brought me back for a whileee..

ADISTAR control 4th version
loveit!(:

life is a routine i want to get out of.

why cant people do this?
love like they have never been hurt,
live like they will die tomorrow?

i guess its cos they know they wont die tmrw, and instead they have to plan for tmrw. doing things that pave the way for more tmrw to come.

JC got so much much much to do:P
but i guess its alright.

i dont wanna blog already.and i havent even like started.this is BAD.

waiting for the orange flash to come on. waiting and waiting, will this ever end?

i will like you when you can make me smile.
but i will know, i love you, when you can make me cry.
(:
a walk to remember, i love love love that show!!!!

this weekend has been extremely extremely tough.bleh.

WHY
by Avril Lavigne
why,do you always do this to me?
why,couldnt you just see it thru me?
do you expect me to believe i was the only one to fall?
its not supposed to feel this way,
i need you i need you more each day
its not supposed to hurt this way.

i still love Avril.i mean her previous songs.

one week of school has passed just like that.every weekend i tell myself i got to do some work,which i did,but i know it was still the bare minimum.which will definitely kill me.gotta start studying,even if in others' perspective means mugging.AHH.i dont know if i can do what i set out to do because i dont love what i am doing now.

i am starting to like the ideas behind The English Teacher now. Teachers nowadays are merely giving the teenagers junks of General Paper, making us grow up into adults just like them.face this adult world,learning to varnish words to appear more polite,elegant what have you. we have to face problems we didnt use to.

i dont like this unrealistic world,but i have to live in it.i have to grow up and act like a 16 ++ year old.(except the times im with natasha and yiyao la.they dont usually care and we play along like kids that really have fun and have no troubles whatsoever about doing general paper homework and making us a bunch of "sturdy idiots").

unrealistic as it may seem, i now know why Peter Pan yearns to be young forever. If there are spaces available in neverland, i would like to enrol my family and i in it.

im not rational and daydreaming for now.and in 15 mins i have to go attend a lecture again.
i will wonder if there is someone out there who thinks like me.never wanting to be an adult.

you've changed.not for the better,nor for the worse.its just a change.
today is a lousy day.

i want to cry and scream to the sea.i want to CRY real hard and let tears fall.i want to go to a place no one knows me.where whatever i do,whatever i feel,is what i want.

when you feel like crying,close your eyes.because doing so,tears cant flow out that way.

i cant help but think about all the homework i have abandoned and will have SO SO much to catch up.

AHH!i got my first A LEVEL paper today!project work.im going to become a mugger so soon i wont even know!we even got a individual GP blog!:(

i stare at the screen and dont know what to type.my head hurts like crazy but i dont feel like sleeping.i get the feeling that time is just slipping like that.like sand sipping out of a person's grasp.it falls,down and down,never going to defy gravity and stay in your hands,no matter what you do.
nothing can ever turn out perfectly the way you want things to.i have everything i want,but without warning,what i have can also be lost.because i have everything,thats why im afraid of losing something.
wondering when life ends,what happens?that will be the end to our journey on Earth.to me,there seem to be no second life.no more family,friends and emotions.you know nothing of what happened before even if you are reborn.16 years have just passed like this.i believe time will pass even faster as we grow older.i do not wish to grow up.
what is happiness?what is sadness?will there be happyness if there was no sadness to contrast the difference?
will there be beauty if there was no ugly?
i believe everything exist for a reason;everything has happened because we were meant to go through.
is it bad to be easily swayed by your emotions?
so many questions,yet no answers.
sometimes,there are questions that i wish not to know the answers.

MP,please do not come hunt me down sending your bodyguards just because i gave your son attitude.
its cos he gave me equal or more attitude.

i miss ogf days!although everyday have to wake up super early and have to be the bad guy every morning confiscating valubles,we still have lotsa fun cheering and playing lame games.and we dont have to go for lessons.can start cheer whenever i want and no one thinks youre doing it for the attention!(:

havent been blogging much because the laptop has not been home!urgh!
going to watch music and lyrics tomorow~!

CONCOLOR!grace loves you!

people,AJC.
thats where i am going.
that place i went for first three months,found friends and skipped school.even got a call from the vice-principal and appealed against CWO.

i think acjc have a great time rejecting applicants.i will never understand how come despite knowing that they might reject me,i still want to go apply for that school.and for a period of time,i was super hopeful that i will get into AC.

AJC,youre not bad.
its just that i feel,a lot of people treat this school as a second choice.
in pae.
now.
too. will it ever change?

dont be disappointed.

BORED !

FREAK M1 vodafone!i feel so cheated.
its SLOW.
very.
i tried logging in blogger for 3000 times today,and only on the 3001th attempt did i succeed.

im in a BORED mood now.
not that you care i care.
or that i care you care.
see?
my behaviour changes.AHH.

engagement rings are more than just a proof of his ability to provide for her.
you dont get engaged to someone whom you think can SOLELY provide for you.
engagement rings symbolises a promise.to be renewed when the couple gets married.

there.

just checked out Oxford Brookes University website.
if i do want to do my uni there,persuing a degree in Accounting and Finance(BCs/hons),
i will have to get AT LEAST a BBC in A levels,and 30 points for IB students.
the annual tuition fee for this cost as of 2009 will be 10,000 sterling pound,which is about S$30,ooo.
this is not inclusive of your acommodation fees,nor living expenses.
it cost around 400o pounds annually for staying in uni halls,and transport will be provided(its called brookes bus).
you need money to eat and everything right.
so to persue an education in Oxford Brookes,please be prepared to pay at least s$60,000.annually.
and,we singapore students are not eligible for the scholarships offered by the school because you have to be studying A levels or IB in UK in order to apply.
want someone else to pay for your education,where you get to enjoy the experience studying abroad?find some Singapore KNOWN company to sponsor you.most likely for such an expensive investment,you will have to sign a contract,bond.and unless youre amongst the top scorers in your cohort,pass every single test in your entire life,i dont see why a scholarship will seek a normal ordinary person.
PSC no longer offer scholarships to Brookes.

its strange how i worry about this when i am unsure whether i will pass my next chemistry test.

AHH.SMU,youre my TOP singapore university choice.

message in a bottle.

if i put all my love for you into a bottle and throw it into the open sea,

will you one day chance upon it to show me we're really meant to be?

suddenly remembered how much i love the nicholas sparks' book,message in a bottle.if i remember correctly,i love the letters they wrote for each other.but since we study geography in this REAL world.the bottle cant actually go to the other part of the world.

because of all the longshore currents,swash,backwash forming longshore drift.it will only drift along the coast.yar.it can reach the end of east coast if you throw it from one end.but im afraid it will be deposited before the start of a love story begins.see how the real world occasionally brings me back to reality?ahh!(:

these are the shooting stars!

flower vs well,stars(:

dont forget.

just because your choir get gold with honours doesnt mean other choirs in singapore are crap.yes,its a gold with honours choir.but if anyone from that choir ever laugh,i really despise them.choir that comes with gold with honours means that others are beneath them?i dont know why some ex-bpian choir members love to critiscise out juniors.instead of supporting them,you are just putting them down.its bad if other people do it le,its worse when you get it from ur ex seniors.so what if they arent really that good?have you all ever returned to see how much effort they put in?they are having sectionals on no-choir days,did we ever did that?

disappointed with you.
even if bp choir has never gotten a gold before,i will never forget the four years i spent there.cos theres more than just getting that gold.
maybe the world is just too practical.they start to focus solely and only on the result,what about the process?

BP choir,you all must all work hard alright!
i love you all(:

Labels: choir

carefree.no worries.
because then,we werent grown people.
we werent expected to know about this hard factual world.

that time,is your childhood.
in case you've already forgotten.

When a girl bumps into yourarm
while walking she wantsyou to hold her hand

When she wants a hug
she will just stand there

When u break a girls heart,
she still feels it
whenu run into each other 3 years later

When a girl is quiet,
millions of things are running throughhermind.

When a girl is not arguing,
she is thinking deeply.

When a girl looks at you with eyesfull ofquestions,
she is wondering how long you will bearound.

When a girl answers, "I'm fine, "after afew seconds,
she is not at all fine.

When a girl stares at you,
she is wondering why you are sowonderful.

When a girl lays her head on yourchest,
she is wishing for you to be hersforever.

When a girl says that she can't livewithout you,
she has made up her mind that you areher future.

When a girl says, "I miss you, "
no one in this world can miss you morethan that

When a girl is mean to you after abreakup
she wants you back, but she'sscared she'll get hurt and knowsyou're gone forever

this is so super nice.(:

i dont need getty all the time.
this,i find,is much truer.

is this me?muahah..
Neuroticism
35
Extraversion
63
Openness To Experience
64
Agreeableness
57
Conscientiousness
49
You are neither a subdued loner nor a jovial chatterbox. You enjoy time with others but also time alone. Stressful and frustrating situations can sometimes be upsetting to you, but you are often able to get over these feelings and cope with these situations. A desire for tradition does not prevent you from trying new things. Your thinking is neither simple nor complex. To others you appear to be a well-educated person but not an intellectual. You have some concern with others' needs, and are generally pleasant, sympathetic, and cooperative. You are reasonably reliable, organized, and self-controlled.

Neuroticism

Overall Score
35
Anxiety
27
Anger
57
Depression
25
Self-Consciousness
22
Immoderation
66
Vulnerability
46
You are a calm person who is considered almost fearless by some. You don't usually get angry too easily but some things can annoy you. You very rarely feel depressed and are usually in a good frame of mind. You do not feel nervous in social situations, and have a good impression of what others think of you. You often resist any cravings or urges that you have, but sometimes you give in. High levels of stress can lead to you feeling panic or confusion, but usually you cope with day to day pressures.

Extraversion

Overall Score
63
Friendliness
74
Gregariousness
65
Assertiveness
68
Activity Level
20
Excitement-Seeking
63
Cheerfulness
56
You genuinely like other people and openly demonstrate positive feelings toward others. You make friends quickly and it is easy for you to form close, intimate relationships. You like crowds but sometimes feel overwhelmed by them. Sometimes you feel like you need some privacy and time for yourself. You like to speak out, take charge, and direct the activities of others. You are usually the leader in group activites. You lead a leisurely and relaxed life. You would prefer to sit back and smell the roses than indulge in high energy activities. You enjoy some excitment and risk taking in your life. You have a generally cheerful disposition.

Openness To Experience
Overall Score
64
Imagination
51
Artistic Interests
50
Emotionality
91
Adventurousness
61
Intellect
20
Liberalism
81
You are a moderately imaginative person who enjoys a good balance between the real world and fantasy. You are reasonably interested in the arts but are not totally absorbed by them. You have good access to and awareness of your own feelings. Familiar routines are good, but sometimes you like to spice up your life with a bit of adventure or activity. You prefer dealing with either people or things rather than ideas. You regard intellectual exercises as a waste of your time. Often you exhibit a readiness to challenge authority, convention, and traditional values. Sometimes you feel a certain degree of hostility toward rules and perhaps even enjoy ambiguity.

Agreeableness

Overall Score
57
Trust
81
Morality
25
Altruism
67
Cooperation
69
Modesty
14
Sympathy
77
You naturally assume that most people are fair, honest, and have good intentions. You believe that a certain amount of deception in social relationships is necessary. You are guarded in new relationships and less willing to openly reveal the whole truth about yourself. You will help others if they are in need. If people ask for too much of your time you feel that they are imposing on you. You dislike confrontations and are perfectly willing to compromise or to deny your own needs in order to get along with others. You feel superior to those around you and sometimes tend to be seen as arrogant by other people. You are tenderhearted and compassionate, feeling the pain of others vicariously and are easily moved to pity.

Conscientiousness

Overall Score
49
Self-Efficacy
59
Orderliness
65
Dutifulness
29
Achievement-Striving
53
Self-Discipline
74
Cautiousness
18
You are moderately confident that you can achieve the goals you set yourself. You are a reasonably organized person and like to have a certain amount of routine in your life. You find contracts, rules, and regulations overly confining and are sometimes seen as unreliable or even irresponsible by others. Mostly you work towards achieving your best, although in some areas you are content just to get the job done. You have strong will-power and are able to overcome your reluctance to begin tasks. You are able to stay on track despite distractions. You often say or do the first thing that comes to mind without deliberating alternatives and the probable consequences of those alternatives.

RIGHT.

slept at about 130 lastnight just to finish that Chinese project,doing everything to make the thing seem longer like changing font size to 13 instead of 12.it doesnt make much difference actually.THEN,she decided that she will not check today!okay lor.she win.but at least we wont need to do it over the weekend..

tmr is SATURDAY.its the first saturday i went to aj la.tmr got ogf thing.super long.still wondering to go or not to..urgh..i dont know whether i will stay in AJ also right.

school ended quite early(as compared to 615 on tue) today.so many people in my class withdraw le..math was quite interesting.miss new very funny.

supposed to play squash today with a friend,but he dint turn up anyway.so.i found out that when im emotional(wanna cry,angry etc),i can hit the ball harder.so i played for quite some time.i think i got fever now la.played for 6 hours in two days.and ran in the rain previously.feeling a little sick.

im so not looking forward to the ogf.ahh..makes me wanna stay in aj more.just what is my problem la.

maybe i dont have the blond hair you like,
maybe i dont have eyes like the sky.

but i still wish for you to love me.

just like how the princess was loved of the yester-day.

HAPPY CNY EVERYONE!(:
sorry this came abit late,i was in malaysia!i hope everyone had fun!i talked quite alot to mel and everything.it was fun!and nice.i love talking to you about all those rubbish la.but as the years pass,dont you think cny gettin more boring in malaysia?last time veryvery fun de.then now.abit cold eh.

anyway,cny hols are over.(ACSi had one more day of holiday than the other usual people out there,which is so totally unfair la.the tradition should be applied to all of singapore schools!all these private/independent schools already have holidays that we dont like FOUNDERS day!)coming back to school is bad.i was considered very late when i arrived at school at 815 and got a CWO!which i appealed against and the vice principal even called my mum to check if me reason given for appealin against the CWO was valid.i think this is the first call she made in 2007.and that LUCKY one has to be me:( then my chinese group project was rejected cos the chinese teacher said it was too broad a topic.and i skipped pe but they only ran 4 rounds!now i have to make up with 6.

but there was squash.so it was not that bad.although i missed alot,but it was better than the rest of the days.

squash makes me wanna stay in aj.the seniors are so very nice.even though they know we're leaving,they still lend us one court then they play in the other one.they can,use two if they want.but they din la.and they still say hi and everything in canteen.urgh.
i feel bad for going to acj.i wont stop worrying about how the acj squash people are.and i DONT WANNA stay in RECRE CLUB!

chloe's appealing into ACSi.she wants it la.but then no one i know will join squash with me!ahh..regina!i hope you get into ACJ!6th march,please arrive sooner,so i dont have to that chinese teacher put me down anymore!

Labels: (2), school.is.killing.me

it is true that even i didnt meet you them,i will still meet you eventually?
will i then fall in love with you?

if we were really meant to meet,there will be so many other times we will see each other on the streets.bump into each other and know each other from there.

FATE.

oh yar.i was staring at this blank screen for a while then i got what i wanted to type.yes valentine's day.haha..i dint blog about that right.i just feel like bloggin alittle about it.

so he got school till abt 3.i spent the whole morning checking www.streetdirectory.com for the bus routes and stuff from the nearest mrt station.and i finally got everything from the webbie and went down happily down to clementi..then when i reached,i realised there's TWO busstops at that place,both having the same bus service i wanna take.all my time spent on going to that web is wasted la.in the end i was lucky and went to the correct busstop.BUT,there was actually another bus service that goes to the place i wanna go la.its so much faster too.but it was not double deck.:(

yada yada.so we went to botanic gardens.i didnt know why i decided to go there.it was super hot.the best time to go there is about 5 i guess.oh ya,i almost wanted to go to gleneagles hospital to take a look since my siblings were born there but i wasnt.but i didnt.abit crazy right.

yar.back to b.gardens.theres scattered AC people around the place,i dont know how come they want to go there as well.maybe i think like a ACian?thats good right.haha..but i saw the ACS IB girls uniform and so did not like it.its off white.

walking walking.then i saw a brown ball rolling in front of me.its not moving towards me but its like rolling stationarily la.i thought it was a chocolate ball,something like a chocolate fondue.but it turned out to be a marble ball,with water flowing down its surface.illusions happen when it gets too hot.

so,we sat in some bench in some shaded place.cos it wa really too hot..i will remember where is it exactly,as long as i find a plant named cynthia.cos its just in front of that plant.its abit stupid to sit there and get stung by mosquitoes and all.but i guess its not that bad when i spend it with you.(:

yada yada.i got my present....its nice.its more than nice.i like it when you think of ways to make me something that takes more effort than spending money..i guess putting a limit to what you can spend makes you think more right?

oh.then we ate at THE RICE TABLE in international building.everyone,this place rocks!the food is slightly spicy,but you got so much variety (20 dishes) in small portions. its interesting.and fun!and creative!(of course.i thought of this place).but you all should make reservation before going there.cos its packed even on normal days.go le then tell me alright?im doin free ad for them..

i love my valentine's day.
i love my valentine.
i love that day
14.feb.2007.

a dream i dont wanna it to end.

Labels: vday.

REGINA and XINLING!i wanna go town also!ahh..but need to take care of sick sister la:(
yes regina,i will bake cookies for you so long your teeth is stronger than the cookies.haha..
today has pretty much been a boring day,kept listening to i belong to me by jessica simpson.and cleared my room(my part of the room anyway).CNY is round the corner,im so happy!get to see melissa and all my cousins!i so miss you all veryvery much!i wanna know all ur gossips la.you said you have alot.and i FINALLY can wear my new orange shoes.make me taller and i can wear my new clothes!yes!

prolink is ending tonight!ahh,.i will miss it so much.no more high speed internet.:(

OH yar.i didnt go to school today.is my un-presence felt?i felt bad la.cos i didnt tell natasha that i wasnt going today.she prolly dint go today as well.skipped econs and chinese,ended up mugging physics and chemistry at home.actually i did like few questions.but i felt i knew enough,so i guess that counts for studying right?

then watched devil by my side..ahh..that show really nice!xinling they all will know.thats her favourite show la.(thinking about that,ling and i will definitely end up in different junior colleges la).must still hang out sometime okay.i wanna go swimming!in the night.i shall suggest that they warm the pool at night.the heat will prolly burn more calories right.cos its hot.

we have been in the same school since we met la.but i know with friends like ling,regina,yiyao and davis and some more that i havent mentioned,neither distance nor time will make our friendship fade away right?even if i dont see you for quite some time,when we meet we still got lots to talk about..

i suddenly thought of something.i wanna have 6A gathering!haha..xinling shall plan again.haha.we shall go before PAE results come out.i wanna go...SENTOSA!and sit cable car..haha..remember the last time during miss lo's wedding,we hid lingyi under the blanket in my father's car cos her dad's car was somewhere near us and we dint wan her dad to see?imagine so many people,10 plus squeezing into one car..i really miss all those la..it just suddenly comes back...

Labels: memories

ahhhh..i wish chloe's teacher sick or something so i dont need to wait till 345 for her!actually,besides waiting for her,i need to wait for AJ capt to loan me squash ball.(as im typing this,the cpu next to me is making alot of sounds.kinda like the sounds you hear when youre printing something.except this,DOESNT come from a printer.i hope it doesnt explodes.)i should have asked chloe to bring hers la..urgh....

just did a quiz on mole concept chemistry.its so difficult!why do i have to study that garbage.if i got like b3for that,i would have taken it in h1.but i still have to do mole calculations!i have forgotten most of the chem stuff i learnt!!!i think i will prolly fail it.but its not that bad.cos i dint fail ECONS!yea..i got 16/20..not bad for my first test i guess.there's gonna be math test soon.i dont know when..but i guess i need to go home and study le..i haven been studying since after the first week.

oh,AJ squash capt just called.i can go play now.actually still need to wait for chloe.but.i can go now!YEAH!

Labels: school.is.killing.me

Ahh..lessons as per normal again today at AJ..but miss low dint come today!meaning we got one more free period!sch ends early cos there's no math,but there's some other classes i dont care about.a part of me wishes for the jae results to come out soon because i wanna wear a new ACJ(i hope) uniform to AC,but another part of me wishes to stay in AJ because of all the nice people in squash and choir,and my class people,and natasha,cynthia(i saw your name as a plant yesterday..).

supposed to play squash at school today..but going there only makes me wanna stay in AJ more.after all,these seniors were the people who were nice and got us into squash,spent their time teaching us something and being basically nice to us by lending us the courts and all of them training in the other court..i dont know if the AC squash people are as nice cos i heard that most of them are dsa-ians,and theres like a super big recreation club.almost every cca in AC has recre club la.but i dont wish to be in recre club.its after all, RECRE club...ahhhh..and i dont wanna join choir again.the AC choir people are nice,but i feel more comfortable in AJ choir.there are people in AJ choir like agnessa,guowei,kaane,zhengkai,shawna and the other people i haven't mentioned..AC and AJ people are just nice in different ways la.

and the people in AJ here study.like study hard.meaning i will prolly get good A levels if im influenced by them to mug..

BUT if yiyao and regina goes to AC,it makes my life more stable i guess.the friends here i make in AJ seem more real than the friends i might make in AC.after all,this is the impression it gives students.(oh but theres this MG girl called hannah i think,met her during AC choir appeal,she is a nice person and will make a very real friend)..

i just hope after all this is over,i wont regret my decision.AC afterall,have been my dream school. It's just that AJ made an impact.its not as bad as some people have thought it to be.yes,some might have bad experiences here but that doesnt represent the whole school..heard some comments on friendster and it seems that AC isnt that bad,not everyone is super rich,pretty and smart.

InterSchool squash is COMING!YEA..i will go down to support the AJ seniors.actually we all think that the guys squash is good.but compared to others schools,they dont seem that good then.i will still wanna see AJ play!

AJ VRALA!

Labels: ACJ-AJ

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY EVERYONE!
i think the most meaningful(and catchy) sms i received was from YIYAO!
'hey people!:) happy valentines's day :p for those who found their other half, stay true!
for those who have yet, stay focused! For those who dont care, stay with me! :X good morning!'

going out today for dinner.i hope the food is nice!(:

(daryl,i blogged today.HAHA.so what about you?)

Labels: valentina

i got that piece of paper i worked for 4 years!(actually only one..but still..)
i got 9 i got 9 i got 9!this is the first time i got a single digit for l1r5.what surprises me the most is that i got a1 for combined humanities!i feel super happy now.

i think i will get samsung k5 for this!i wanna frame my results up!:)
now,should i go ac or aj?

1 and 1/2 hour to opening that formA.i couldnt sleep last night because i was afraid of dreaming.i did not know what results i will get.i definitely hope i will at least pass my english so i can like go somewhere,and i want my triple a1s for maths and chinese,and maybe a triple a2 in geography and physics.

taking my results today sorta remind taking my psle results.except that that wasnt this scary.its like.this is the first major major examination.i hope i will make it true.and be screaming because i did well and not crying because i didnt do as well.

Labels: olevels

nearing the release of o level results,getting more and more anxious.

just talked to a friend about his blog.theres so much there,showing how much he has grown to become a stronger person.most of it is about christian faith,and i do respect that.what interests me the most is his opinions about relationships.

how long is forever?will what that person say still hold true that next month,next year,or even just the next day?

im so tired so tired now.

having something is that is not really there.

tomorrow is THE day!results coming out finally..super anxious..no matter what everyone says about not worrying,i will still worry about it la.my l1r5 cannot be above 13 la.if not i everywhere also cannot go!

need to go help my mum do pineapple tarts.i still think its worth it.skipping school for pineapple tarts!:D

school's com is lousy!
they disabled cookies and java so that those guys cant play dota or something..but by doing so,it means that they have destroyed one of my means of blogging!really need to star studying cos ive either been sleeping talking or daydreaming in science lectures.except the occasional laughs about the inFORmation lecturer,its pretty much boring..and now i dont dream at night anymore..maybe cos i daydream too much in the morning..

anyway,ive found a cool website that serves to inspire you to achieve your goals.
www.lifehoo.com

and for those that dont really have creative plans for valentine's day,gather some friends to go do this!
it looks super fun..
you need six people..if you all need one more must call me okay?i wanna go but my aj friends dont wanna spend so many days on it.

www.treasure8awwa.blogspot.com

seeyou!i hope they able the cookies soon!

YEAH!this is my first post on my new blog..i sorta got bored with the navigations on the randompace one,so greenapple was born..i did it during the break before econs lecture..was super bored la..people tell me what you think of it alright?

cross country is tomorrow for AJC.:/super tired after pe and squash yesterday and cross country following up.not fun at all.i hope results come out soon and they are good enough for me to go AC or even stay in AJ.i dont mind staying in AJ cos i haven really been mugging in this school la.it is not as bad as everyone thinks it is...

i hope the font size is not too big nor too small.some people said random has super super small font!:)

speechless

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